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| 11:26pm 16/03/2005 |
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Wow, when the hell was the last time that I updated in this thing? So I'm reading through everyone's lj and just cracking up at the fact that nothing has changed. It's all drama! LOL LIFE is drama. Oh well. So I am like, failing chemistry! I HATE chemistry! How in the world am I gonna be a nurse if I can't even pass chemistry?! Doug has been trying to help poor ADD me but it's not going so well. See, Doug is REALLY smart, and I am...well...ADD. LOL. It can't get anymore black and white than that. So he has little to no patience with people like me when it comes to tutoring. OCC isn't as easy as people think! I went to Western for a year, and then came to OCC, and OCC is definitely more difficult than Western! No question about it.
My life is sooo boring. I have nothing cool to update. I got a tattoo. It's of a green fairy/mermaid. It's so detailed...and big. It's on my left hip...sexy eh? lol So I am 20 years old!! Where the hell is time going? For my birthday, my girly ricki bought me a cake w/ trick candles and mint chocolate chip ice cream (one of my favorites), AND she bought me 2 Taking Back Sunday cd's! Best girl ever. Funniest part of the night though was when my trick candles set off her smoke alarm and we had to run outside w/ the cake screaming and i had to run all the way downstairs (she lives on the 2nd floor in apartments) to put the candles out in the snow. Then her neighbors (2 very hot boys) ran out to see what happened and then wished me a happy birthday. :-) So much fun! I will never forget that night.
I have nothing else cool to say so peace out.
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| 08:06pm 10/12/2004 |
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Are you tired of all those mushy "friendship" poems that always sound good but never actually come close to reality? Well, here's a "frienship" poem that really speaks to true friendship and truth itself...
Friend,
When you are sad...I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
When you are blue...I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
When you smile...I'll know you finally got laid.
When you are scared...I will rag you about it every chance I get.
When you are worried...I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.
When you are confused...I will use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.
When you are sick...stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.
When you fall...I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.
This is my oath...I pledge 'til the end. Why you may ask? Because you're my friend! |
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| 11:39pm 23/09/2004 |
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Ok, so there's this guy that I used to work with named Brad. So after I quit Toyota, I find out that this other guy Gary stole my phone out of my purse and got my two-way number. So Gary calls me up yesterday saying that "Brad has this huge crush on you and you just need to go out with him, forget about your boyfriend." Of course I tell him no because I love Doug and would never do anything to ruin that. Side note: before I knew this, Brad and I were really tight friendship wise, and now it's just awkward. So I call Brad up and say, "This might sound really random but we have to stop talking because I don't want anything to happen between me and Doug. I love Doug and don't want to ruin what great relationship we have together." He gets very upset and says I'm not just "ok" with that but I do understand. Ok, why do some guys not just get the point that it makes me uncomfortable if one of my friends turns out to love me. I am already in love...why don't they understand that? **majorly stressed out**
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| 08:12pm 20/09/2004 |
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mood:  weird music: *Strokes*
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Ok, so I totally forgot to mention that I went to California from August 13-22. It was absolutely amazing.
Doug's mom is best friends with a girl in California who is dating Don Starks(Bob from That 70's Show). Since Doug and I were in Cali the same night that That 70's Show was being taped, Karen, "Bob's" girlfriend, took us to a taping where we sat V.I.P and after the show we got to go on the set and take pictures with the whole cast, get autographs and I got a few hugs, YAY, and then Doug and I got pictures taken, by Bob, on the set. It was AMAZING!!! We also got to ride with Don Starks in his beautiful BMW convertible! Baby blue*sigh*. Oooohhh...very important, I got two pictures with Ashton Kutcher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE LA
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| 11:14pm 18/09/2004 |
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*Ok, wow, so when was the last time I updated this thing. I wasn't even sure that I still had it, lol. So I am going to school at OCC baby! Western was WAAAAY too much of a party school for me. I'm a "no work and all play" kinda gal. So in order for me to actually do something productive with my life, I decided to make myself come home and get through college. I cut my hair, it's still really really long, but it has layers in it now, which look totally hot (totally kidding). I have the worst self-esteem issues. So I was really thinking that community college would be way easier than University, but man-oh-man was I wrong. I have like, triple the homework AND study time, geesh. I FINALLY got to hang out with my ren this weekend, which was amazing to finally catch up on things and get back to our normal selves. I really missed her, now all I have to do now is find time to hang out with Inna, Jen, Matt, Pat, Brent and I will be all set. I REALLY miss Western though. The atmosphere there is just so amazing and the people were great. Everyone loved everyone and I felt very safe and "at home" there. It's good that I am welcome at Matt & other's house whenever I want, which was very generous of them. They are the best guys and I miss them a lot, they were all MY very own protectors and greatest friends! It' good to know that even though I am three hours away from them, I have a place to hang out at if I wanna just get away.
It's almost Doug and my 2 year anniversary!! Can you believe it?! I feel like just last night Inna was jumping on Doug and me (mind you we were on Inna's bed) saying "Lemanie, what ARE YOU doing?! Wee!" Twin, those WERE the days! Ok, enough of my babbling, time to do some HOMEWORK, ick!
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| 02:36pm 03/12/2003 |
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mood: stressed music: *King of the Hill is on*
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*I absolutely cannot handle my own self right now! I am fully insecure (i've been told by many people this week), I am extremely emotional (I thought the Zoloft was supposed to help that), there's just way too much going on in my little head for me to handle! Finals week is NEXT WEEK, ahhh! I had my religion final today, it SUCKED! DJ's notes helped me a lot though. I have to meet with my group tonight so that we can finish our project. It doesn't seem to be too difficult, but I could be mistaken. Apparantly our project has something to do with religion and The Family Guy(who knew? lol).
So I dusted my room today, my allergies have been so bad that I finally gave into me not being able to breathe and dusted! Little Melanie is growing up! Before I went to Western, the only time that I would dust is when my mom would make me do it, now I am not only just a neat freak, but I'm a dusting queen neat freak, hehe.
You know, lately I have been asked why I am so insecure, and it took me up until now to figure out why...
People say that I'm too quiet, or that I have no confidence about myself, well, I'm finally agreeing with the people that say those things. If people knew what I had to grow up with, the teasing, my childhood, they would understand why I am the way that I am. I was teased my WHOLE childhood! Up until sophomore year of high school, I was terrified to go to school because I was worried about what other people were going to say about me. I was an ugly child, I don't deny that. But kids are absolutely cruel. Now that I'm 18 years old, I occassionally get told that I am pretty, but every time someone tells me that, I don't believe them at all. It goes in one ear and out the other. I can't help it, it's just how I am. I have no confidence what-so-ever.
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| 01:18am 27/11/2003 |
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mood:  busy music: *Nada*
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*HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!*
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| *Who needs sleep? ME ME ME!!* |
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| 07:46am 13/11/2003 |
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mood: sleepy music: *Fuel*
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*Last night I was over Doug's studying for Psych until 2:00 in the morning. Then since it was snowing and REALLY windy, he told me that I should just sleep over. So I try sleeping...Matt was playing Vice City and keeping me awake. So I figured I'd be the polite one, and instead of telling him to be more quiet(he kept talking REALLY loud and the volume was up pretty high on the tv), I decided to walk home. It was 3:30 a.m. when I decided to go home so that I could get at least 4 hours of sleep before my exam. Doug was extremely sweet and walked me home though I pleaded with him not to because I'm a big girl and can walk home by myself. So he walked me back, in the snow and freezing, harsh wind. I drove him back since he walked me all the way, hehe. So I got about 3 1/2-4 hours of sleep (NOT ENOUGH). In a half hour I have to go for a meeting with my English teacher (mandatory meeting worth 50 points). So that's at 11:30. THEN at 12:30 I have a math exam! Busy busy week!
This week:
Monday: notes coming out my ass from Religions of the World
Tuesday:busted my butt to get all of my math homework done in an hour cause I thought that it was due on Thursday (did it during class)and study for exams
Wednesday:Religions of the World make-up exam. Study for Psych and math
Thursday: Psych exam, meeting with my English teacher, Math exam
Friday: NO CLASS!! Go home with Doug and Matt
This weekend: Catch up on my much-needed sleep!
Well, I'm off like a prom dress! :-)
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| *I am determined to get good grades...I really am* |
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| 10:45am 12/11/2003 |
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*Today I had a Religions of the World make-up test. It wasn't TOO bad, or at least I don't think it was, lol. Tomorrow is the big day though...I have a Psych exam, ahhhh! I've got all of the skipping lot's of classes and not studying out of my system and am ready to get serious. I actually studied for my Religions exam and I'm actually gonna study for my Psych. It's the new Melanie! The accomplished Melanie! Hopefully I can stay this way, lol, and not get lazy.
I am really getting sick of cafeteria food! It's way good for cafeteria food, don't get me wrong, but it gets SO old after so long. I'm excited for summer! haha. I know it's a long time away and the snow isn't even here yet, but I despise snow with a passion! I grew up in California my whole life and I don't think I could ever get used to the cold weather. Snow is a beautiful thing, but only to look at, not to be in. I do love snow boarding though...
Ok, I have to go and watch Passions. There aren't many days that I am free to watch it cause I'm so busy so I am going to take advantage of these free moments...
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| *This was stolen from you Twin, which was apparantly stolen from someone else, hehe* |
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| 10:44am 10/11/2003 |
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Name] Melanie
Do you like it] No, because everyone always mistakens it for Melody or they can't pronounce it (is it really THAT hard of a name, NO!)
Nicknames] Mel, Lems, Lemanie, Twin, Nelabanie, May(my dad calls me that),Owensby, OB(old coach), majority of those nicknames are from my lovely Twin Inna cause she can't ever say my name right (lol)
Age] 18
Birthday] March 14
Sign] Pisces
School] Wastern Baby!(Western Michigan University)
Natural hair color] Really dark brown
Current hair color] Dark Brown
Eye color] blue, gray, green (whatever the mood is)
Height] 5'7, I'm a tall girly
[ favorites ]
Number] 25
Color] cerulean
Day] Friday-Sunday
Month] October, March, any month in the summer!
Song] right now...it would be..."Breathe" by Michelle Branch
Movie] right now it's "Kill Bill"
Band] Incubus, Radiohead, Cold Play, Nickelback, etc.
Season] SUMMER!(reminds me of Cali weather) *sighs*
Sport] Softball, Soccer (both how I sprained my ankle), football
Class] Do I even have one?, lol, NOPE
Teacher] Mr. Byrd, my religions of the world teacher, he's awesome (he talks like Eminem, lol)
Drink] Diet Coke, Water, everyone loves this one(Green Tea with Ginsing and Honey)
Veggie] Is an artichoke an veggie?(yummy!)
TV Show] Spongebob Squarepants!, Simpsons, definitely That 70's Show, King of the Hill
Animal] Hippo
Flower] Gerber daisy (Doug got them for me on our year anniversary!)
State] I haven't been to all of them so I can't say...
[number]
of times i have had my heart broken] Probably twice
of hearts i have broken] No clue
of guys/girls i have kissed] Who knows how many guys I've kissed, I've kissed one girl and it was before I kissed a guy (don't even ask!)
of continents i have lived in] One
of tight friends] Enough to make me happy
of cd's that i own] Considering more than half of mine got stolen out of my CAR, I have no clue now, I USED to have SOOOO many
of scars on my body] Too many, softball can do some damage
[who do you want to...]
[ Kill ] There are many people that I get REALLY pissed off at and want to disappear, but I would never kill anyone
[ Slap ] There are MANY people
[ Get Really Wasted With ] I can't drink
[ Look Like ] Every person is different, and though I would love to change many things about myself, I wouldn't want to look any different
[ Talk To Offline ] Lot's of people
[ Talk To Online ] Whoever
[ Fuck] what the...woah woah woah!
[ love and relationships ]
Do you have a bf/gf] yeppers! :-)
Do you have a crush] It's more than a crush with Doug (duh!) hehe
Why do you like this person] Doug is an amazing person. He's smart, funny, witty, way hot, has the biggest heart, best eyes and smile, has the best family, and he loves me back!
If you're single... why are you single] not single
If you're not single... give details...] Read two questions above
Who was your first love] Honestly, Doug. Sometimes you THINK you're in love, but then your eyes are opened to a shocker that the person you thought you loves was really an ASS to you
What do you miss about them] Nothing
[ the past ]
What is the one thing you would change about your past] Let's not even go there
Last thing you heard] Tiffany opening her carry-out
Last thing you saw] My Propel
Last thing you said] "OK" as Tiffany told me she would be right back from carry-out
Who is the last person you saw] My Religions of the World teacher
Who is the last person you kissed] Doug of course
Who is the last person you hugged] Doug
Who is the last person you fought with] I don't remember
Who is the last person you were on the phone with] Doug's mom
What is the last TV show you saw] "The Nanny"
What is the last song you heard] The intro to "The Nanny"
[ future ]
What are you going to do after this] Go and get some food, probably with Doug and Joe
Who are you going to talk to] ...Doug and Joe...
Where are you going to go] To my cafe since it IS the best, ask anyone who goes to Western
How old will you be when you graduate] 23
What do you wanna be] a Nurse
Where will you be in 25 years] Do I look psychic? Hopefully married to Doug, being a nurse, and living somewhere WARM!
[ other ]
Do you write in cursive or print] Depends on what I'm writing
Are you a lefty or a righty] Righty
What is your sexual preference] I am so straight!
What piercings do you have] Three in one ear and two in the other, belly button
Any tattoos] not yet
Do you drive] yes
Do you have glasses or braces] glasses
Did you like this survey] whatever
[ physical appearance ]
What do you most like about your body] Eyes
And least] ears
How many fillings do you have] Too many
Do you think you're good looking] Nope
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking] Doug does :-)
Do you look like any celebrities] I dont think so...
[ fashion ]
Do you wear a watch] Yes
How many coats and jackets do you own] I just got my first winter coat, lol
Favorite pants/skirt color]:Dark
Most expensive item of clothing] No Clue
Most treasured] ?
What kind of shoes do you wear] Adidas |
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| 09:09pm 05/11/2003 |
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*While I am sitting in Doug's room while they have a floor meeting, I'm all by myself, my boyfriend has to be the center of attention outside the hall. I didn't getg a good bye before he left, he just walked out. Then he comes back in here and asks me if there's anything wrong! I have felt so ignored for about a week or so now and it's getting really old! It hurts my feelings really bad, and when my feelings get hurt, I just get pissed off! Maybe I should just disappear for a while and people might start paying attention to me or just even acknoledging (i totally forgot how to spell that)me. I just don't want to feel like I don't exist. I need to go back to California where people will be excited to see me, that would be my therapy right now.
Ok, so Doug's friend Matt is having a party this weekend, but since doug isn't telling his parents that he's coming home, I can't go over to matt's. Matt's parents are going out of town which is the reason for the party. The only words that were said, "you could always hang out with Ricki." Thanks alot! That makes me feel great. Yea, or I could hang out with a bunch of guys and see how he feels about it! Maybe that will open his eyes a little bit. Am I so not intersting that people just stop caring about me? If not, that's definitely how I feel right now! |
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| *I am the season Autumn* |
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| 10:48am 15/10/2003 |
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You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...
You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.
Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)
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| 07:24am 07/10/2003 |
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*Why does stuff like this happen to such amazing people with such potential and such an amazing heart? I don't get it, I'm so confused right now and so depressed.It just takes time I guess.* |
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| 08:47pm 02/10/2003 |
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*You're only cool if you know what that means! Why do guys insist on girls watching porno's with them? They think it's the funniest thing ever to watch a girl watch a porno, the faces girls make just cracks them up. Then they tell you, "you can blink any time now..."
Party at the Guido's dorm! That's the time that you "oke an ole" hehe
Earlier I was pissed and you just have to let things flow and not care about what other people think. Shit happens and you just have to forget about it. Party and forget about it. Know that other people can't piss you off unless you let them, and I'm not letting them anymore. I have true friends that I know who will have my back any time I need it and I have made lots of new friends up at Western. That's all I need and I know that now. |
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| 05:21pm 02/10/2003 |
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mood: annoyed music: *Da na na na na na na na...Simpsons!!!*
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*Fucking shit!!!!* (you know i'm aggravated when I swear!*
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| 02:34pm 01/10/2003 |
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*I hate it when I think that I have a real close friend that I'm totally cool with, and then the tables turn. It feels like my friend doesn't even want me around and whenever we hang out, whether it be with other people or by ourselves, it's awkward and it feels like the person doesn't even want me around or it's just a total bother when I'm there. Why can't friends be honest? If you don't want to be my friend, then why do you talk about me behind my back?Why can't you tell me to my face? Why is it that I see you making faces at other friends whenever I open my mouth. That hurts. And I know that this person doesn't even have live journal, but I feel like bitching! I don't talk about MY friends behind their back, because I know that sooner or later, my friend will find out what I said or at least figure it out for themself. The problem is that I see this person every day, whether I like it or not. I don't mind hanging out with him/or her, but apparantly I should try my hardest to keep my distance...That's the only way that I can think of that will work. I give this person rides in my car all of the time, I buy this person stuff when they don't have money, and I don't even expect them to pay me back. I guess that it's just a friendship that works like, "when I need shit I come to you but other than that we're not friends." whatever!
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| 08:51pm 29/09/2003 |
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*English, math, psychology, and religions of the world. Yea, that's all that I either have to do homework for or have to study for. For Religions of the World I have to read approximately 400 pages(no joke)for a test that I have no clue when it is, so I better get readin'. I'm coming home again this weekend to escort Doug's lil' sister to her Homecoming dinner and drive her to the dance, hopefully in Rick's new car! Of course I won't be driving because of my ankle, Doug will be. I'm so tired and soo full!!
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| 11:45pm 26/09/2003 |
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*So I'm home for the weekend. It was much needed to come home though because of course stupid stupid stupid me sprained my ankle, AGAIN, except this time I have to wear the "big bad boot" for three weeks until it heals. The very first time I sprained my ankle, freshman year of high school, I had to wear "the boot," and now of course I had to be dumb and play soccer with Joe and Doug and sprain my ankle. I think that was the longest sentence I have ever written, lol.
Doug and I have been together for 11 months, YAY!! Our year anniversary is coming up and I have NO clue what to get him, someone help me out!! I need help w/ what to get him, please please leave suggestions!
It is raining SOOO much! geesh.
Happy "Rhasha Shana", not quite sure how to spell it, but I DO know that it IS the holiday this weekend!hehe.
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| 09:47am 23/09/2003 |
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You are Michelangelo...You are fun-loving and free-
spirited, and you always know how to bring a
smile to your friends' faces when they are
feeling down. You are also a bit of a slacker.
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